Hello Everyone!

If not noticed I havent been on DA in a while, not even to chat...well, its a long story but I will make it as short as I can.

Tuesday (may 26), I felt odd all day, went on a field trip blah blah. Got to 6th p. and all of a sudden, I went completely numb, my mouth was numb and even though I was breathing I couldnt feel it. My heart rate skyrocketed, pounding unbelievably. I started getting dizzy. I jumped up in middle of class and went to the podium which ended up having to hold me up as I was starting to pass out. blah blah. School nurse came in and checked me out. My heart rate was 99 to 103, my bloodpressure was 160 over 103. I had 2 spasms like this. I could walk I was so weak. I was put into a wheelchair and I was picked up from school and rushed to the ER. I was there for 4 hrs. I was hooked up to everything possible, had an EKG, chest x-ray, blood work, iv, blah blah.

The conclusion: anxiety and stress induced Panick Attack.

Friday was my first day I went all day without having any incident at all. Tuesday was my worst, they were full blown, but each day after they got easier to pinpoint and work through. By thursday, I could keep them at bay and breath through them with little problem. The Dr. gave me a 10 day amount of this medicine that is for anxiety Only, you take it as you need it. It really helped me out. I didn't take one today and I have done very well. All the tests came back good too, I am healthy, heart and all, but under too much stress, which is causing an increase in anxiety in me, and leads to an attack, which they have all come out of nowhere, even when I wasnt doing anything.

I have to keep focused on other things and not think too much about what all has been happening lately. I am just so stressed out, between college prep, finals, graduation, debts, home, work, horses, and a few other stressess, and some other serious crap like being followed at work by a strange fellow has really took its toll.

On the spritual side, I am a christian, hardcore, and everything has been going well lately, I have really dove in with getting my future some blue prints but working to get them to be more related to god and his plan for me, I have been following more closly the path in which I am being shown by him, and I think the Devil saw a way to get to me; Panick attacks.
These attacks leave you weak physically and mentally, they shake your nerves up worse and make you feel out of control, and sometimes hurt your religious being because you get scared and become untrusting.
I went to church today and got so emotional, I started balling my eyes out. I went to the preacher at the alter, befor the church and clung onto him. We prayed, my father went with me. at the end, I spoke with my church family and told them, the Devil works in cruel ways and that I think he was trying to sway me from my path.That these attacks were his way to hurt me, but that I would not fall and he would not win. Everyone came up and either shook my hand or hugged me. They are praying for me, and I hold that so dear.

The only time I feel okay is when I am with my family or privatly with God. Prayer and really talking with him and my parents have really helped me. I feel so much better, I know I can get through this. School will be out this Friday and I will graduate this saturday and summer will be hear and I can finally relax. I got another scholarship for college and am now double majoring!!! To many things are going good for some Devil to destroy it. Trust me He Wont! I will get through this.

I am still really tired and a little stressed but I am a lot calmer about things now, I've learned how becuase I have no choice. But anywho, this is what has happened that past week of my life. I hope it wasnt too long, cause it sure has felt long, lol.

Thank you all for being such good friends!
God Bless you all.


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